In an interview earlier this month with the British publication iNews, Fergie opened up about how severe her addiction to crystal meth really was when she was a member of the pop trio Wild Orchid in the early 2000s. She told the site, “I was suffering from chemically-induced psychosis and dementia. I was hallucinating on a daily basis. It took a year after getting off that drug for the chemicals in my brain to settle so that I stopped seeing things. I’d just be sitting there, seeing a random bee or bunny.”
It’s hard to imagine that a singer who is in the public eye, a woman who has climbed the charts with The Black Eyed Peas and with her solo career, has such a dark past and was able to overcome addiction.
Fergie opened up about hitting rock bottom when she was addicted to crystal meth. She explained, “The drugs thing, it was a hell of a lot of fun… until it wasn’t. But you know what, I thank the day it happened to me. Because that’s my strength, my faith, my hope for something better."
At one point she thought that the CIA, FBI and a SWAT team was tracking her every move. She hid in a church to “get away from them” and find safety.
“They tried to kick me out, because I was moving down the aisles in this crazy way, as I thought there was an infrared camera in the church trying to check for my body. I bolted past the altar into a hallway and two people were chasing me. I remember thinking: ‘If I walk outside, and the SWAT team’s out there, I was right all along. But if they’re not out there, then it’s the drugs making me see things and I’m going to end up in an institution. And if it really is the drugs, I don’t want to live my life like this any more, anyway.'"
She then found the courage to walk out and face her fears. “I walked out of the church; obviously there was no SWAT team, it was just me in a parking lot. It was a freeing moment.” This was when she knew she had to change her life.
Fergie hopes that by being honest and open about her drug addiction, she can someday help others who are struggling as well. In an interview more than 10 years ago with TIME magazine, she spoke of her intense relationship with crystal meth. She called the drug the “hardest boyfriend that she has ever had to break up with.”
In the interview, she said, “I dug deep as to why I got there. It’s the drug that’s addicting. But it’s why you start doing it in the first place that’s interesting. A lot of it was being a child actor; I learned to suppress feelings.”
She believes that someone is definitely watching over her. Not everyone is able to completely turn their life around and become the success that she has become. “It’s so incredible, I know. I think I must have guardian angels.”
Speaking of breakups, in September, Fergie and Josh Duhamel announced that they were calling it quits. In a joint statement they told People, “With absolute love and respect we decided to separate as a couple earlier this year. To give our family the best opportunity to adjust, we wanted to keep this a private matter before sharing it with the public.”
They are splitting on good terms and have had nothing but kind words for one another. They continued, “We are and will always be united in our support of each other and our family.” And we support you!
The two were married for 8 years and were together for 13. According to a source, their different lifestyles split them apart. And while they are no longer together, they still plan to peacefully co-parent their 4-year-old son, Axl Jack.
On December 4th, Fergie was also in the news for her erratic behavior at the TrevorLIVE Gala in LA, when she crashed the stage while Armie Hammer was speaking and took the mic. Her reps said that it was a joke gone wrong, but others were worried that she may have been intoxicated.
According to her reps, “She’s happy and healthy” and her fans have nothing to worry about. Well, we certainly wish her the best! If you haven’t heard her second studio album Double Dutchess, it is out now!